Only When I Am Asleep

How could we say forever when i can only think of you when i'm asleep........many times you told me to stay focus on things i should do, but my heart still yearns for you.....i feel like i am being neglected sometimes but you will suddenly appear and disappear again like a jack-in-the-box..
occasionaly, i feel glad and thankful you are there.....that at least you are safe although we are separate by distance all the time.....
i keep wondering if there is really sumthing special in me that make you want to hold on.....while i am the one always having no confidence at all......
you got me spinning round and round, but you'll give me good advices in my darkest moments.....
the memories that we have, i'll cherish always as they only happen once in my lifetime.......
you do have very strict principles, while i am the one that could be swept over just by a gust of wind........i do hope sumday we could each find an understanding in each other.
if that sumday never happen, at least we have the chance to know each other although not spiritually........and we could be just friends then........
i just want a normal life with sumone that could know me well and spiritually too.......

a song sung by The Corrs always get me thinking about u......" Only When I'm Asleep "

that's all i want to say.......

Missing my Convent's life.......

all my friend from ipoh has gone back to their hometown!!! feeling neglected.....mmmmph..what to do?? exam is getting nearer.....
still can ctc them via msn.......hehe...
y do i put up the title missing convent's life??
cuz i really miss those days when we would march around the school like nobody's land and talk bout anything at any time...
i still miss the un-racialness in my school where all of us would gather around especially in the prefectorial board...........its like we r truly sisters in one group........
but now,only left a few of us still in m'sia.......alot went over to australia....
i wonder which of us will get married first??
hahahaha.........
all the friends' jokes r still fresh in my mind........
laughing along early in the morning is a very good exercise!!!
i should still practise in my life now............
need that smile very much..........
but someone special is giving me dat smile very often these days.......
really need to thank him for his support......
all along.........
thanks.............

Walking Away

Can we ever walk away from the reality of life? i suppose we can't. many times i think about running away or escaping from my world, but i couldn't. today news mention bout a guy age 18 who is in coma right now now becuz of snatch thieves? the news mention bout my bro's death too. this make me wonder whether what i typed out yesterday could be achieved or not. i was reading the newspaper at the University foyer. tears come to my eyes as quickly as the name of my bro was mention. luckily no one notice me, or else they will be wondering what is happening to me...............

i try listening to my mp3 so the sadness in my heart could go away.at least for a little while so my emotions could be controlled as it was nearly time for me to attend my first class.

damn boring for my first lesson. reminded me of my secondary physics teacher. the lecturer is trying to make jokes but not a sound comes out. i have to listen to him for 3 hours!! 3 hours of the importance of documentation and transactions.........duhh!!!!!!

grace plays a good host to me on my first day. she had lunch with me along with 2 of her friends. even more sweet of her is that she guided me to my classroom. i'm thankful of having her around. i pray that our friendship will never end.

today i got a new song for u all.listen to " Walking Away " by Craig David. A song that manage to cheer me up in many of my darkest moments.......

A New Day Has Come

The day has come for me to grew up to the next stage. i'm starting my lessons in Sunway University College tomorrow. Gee, kind of nervous just thinking bout it. i got this inspiration to create a blog thanks to my friend, sheng yuen. i come to have the chance to read his blog today. it is a very interesting blog. i'm not a master in dealing wif pc things so hope to improve later on. y do i put my blog's title a new day has come? it is not becuz i'm starting university but becuz i should not grief anymore of my bro's death. many of u all who knows me knew bout the tragedy that struck my family juz 2 mths back. if i'm still in grief, i will never be myself again. sheng yuen, if u got the chance to read my blog, thanx for the wonderful words u put in ur blog about my bro. although u only have a brief ctc wif him but u wrote him well. i start to realise that life has many unpredictable things.

Juz a few mths back,i was shopping wif my bro for cheap mp3.been to 3 shopping complexes. ipoh is not very big. in the last one, recommended by my friend sinn yi, we manage to buy 2 mp3.his is much more expensive since he is using his bursary award to buy it. it is through songs we r connected to most. he is the one that introduces to me the new chinese ballads. his favourite artistes included jay chou, lee hom, nicholas teo, michael leong and cyndi ( much to my surprise ). i knew of F4 existence through him too. he bought me F4 first album sum years back since he lost in a bet to me. i'm glad that he and i have the opportunities to spend more time during our long break from our major exams. during our school days, i only have time for myself but not for him. he is always the smart one in the family while i'm the outgoing one. too many camps for me but none for him. the only camp he has been was during his Scout years in primary. but he was a debater. good in bringing out issues and talking bout it.

i always thought he was a loner but i'm wrong. he is sumone that was respected by his friends. there was a time when he helps out a not so popular school's debating team in a competition. i was so surprised by his sincerity to help those guys from another school to beat the other competitors. this action of his touch my heart the most. i will never forget it. not even my parents know about it. only me as his sister who drives him back later knows.

i don't know whether my blog will be an interesting piece to anyone but i juz wan to express my feelings right now.ok, goodnite to everyone.when u have finish reading it, listen to the song " A New Day Has Come " by Celine Dion. a very emotional and inspiring song to me..........